Scenes and Quotes by Spike

Dictionary of English slang and colloquialisms of the UK

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Spike: Oh, listen to Mary Poppins (Giles). He's got his crust all stiff and upper with that nancy-boy accent. You Englishmen are always so... (pauses) Bloody hell! Sodding, blimey, shagging, knickers, bollocks, oh God! I'm English!

Tabula Rasa (S6, Ep8)
BUFFY (panting) We missed the bed again.
SPIKE Lucky for the bed.
Buffy looks down at the rug covering her naked body.
BUFFY Is this a new rug?
SPIKE No. Just looks different when you’re under it.
Buffy laughs, then looks around critically.
BUFFY You know, this place is okay for a hole in the ground. You fixed
it up.
SPIKE Well, I ate a decorator once. Maybe something stuck.
BUFFY I’ve been thinking about doing something to my room.
SPIKE Yeah?
BUFFY Yeah, I think the New Kids On The Block posters are starting to
date me.
SPIKE Well, if you want, I can…
Spike stops and looks at Buffy in surprise.
SPIKE Are we having a conversation?
BUFFY What? No! No. (beat) Maybe.
SPIKE Hmm.
BUFFY What?
SPIKE Well, isn’t this usually the part where you kick me in the head
and run out, virtue fluttering?
BUFFY That’s the plan… soon as my legs start working.
Spike grins and runs his finger up and down her arm.
SPIKE You were amazing.
BUFFY You got the job done yourself.
SPIKE I was just trying to keep up. The things you do… the way you
make it hurt in all the wrong places. I’ve never been with such an
animal.
Buffy jerks her arm away.
BUFFY I’m not an animal.
SPIKE You want to see the bite marks?
BUFFY You know, it’s late. I should get home before Dawn goes to
sleep.
SPIKE And she’s off.
Buffy disappears completely beneath the rug.
BUFFY (muffled) Have you seen my underwear?
SPIKE What is this to you— this thing we have?
BUFFY (muffled) We don’t have a thing. We have this. That’s all.
She pulls herself up on her elbows.
SPIKE Do you even like me?
BUFFY (reluctant) Sometimes.
SPIKE But you like what I do to you?
Buffy won’t look at him. After a moment Spike turns and reaches for something behind him. He holds up a pair of handcuffs.
SPIKE Do you trust me?
BUFFY Never.

Dead Things (S6, Ep 13)

TARA So what do you want to talk about?
BUFFY It’s Spike. He can hurt me. Without his head exploding.
TARA Oh, my god. His chip stopped working?
BUFFY No, it still works. Just not on me. I need to know about the spell.— the one that brought me back. I’d ask Willow but…
TARA You think it’s you.
BUFFY I don’t know. I feel… different. There are things. I think maybe… I came back wrong.
TARA (firm) No, Buffy, that’s not… No, you didn’t.
BUFFY Can you check out the spell? Just see if there’s something that… could you just check? Please?

Dead Things (S6, Ep 13)

SPIKE You see, you try to be with them but you always end up in the dark… with me.
Spike moves up behind Buffy and looks down at Buffy’s friends as they dance.
SPIKE What would they think of you if they found out… all the things you’ve done?
He puts his hand on her bare shoulder runs it down her arm.
SPIKE If they knew who you really were?
His hand moves down to her elbow and then on to her waist.
BUFFY (whispers) Don’t.
SPIKE Stop me.
Spike’s hand moves across Buffy’s thigh. She closes her eyes. He pulls her skirt
up. She gasps with pleasure.
Spike turns her around to face him. After a moment, he thrusts into her and Buffy
moans, her eyes still tightly closed.
SPIKE No… don’t close your eyes.
She opens her eyes.
SPIKE (re: her friends)
Look at them. That’s not your world. You belong in the shadows… with me.
Spike grinds slowly in and out of her whispers into her ear.
SPIKE Look at your friends… and tell me you don’t love getting away with this… right under their noses.
Buffy stares forlornly down at her friends as she lets Spike have his way with her.

Dead Things (S6, Ep 13)

Various officers go in and out of the brightly-lit building. Buffy exits the alley next to the station and heads for the main entrance. Spike steps out of the shadows and blocks her.
SPIKE What do you think you’re doing?
BUFFY The right thing. For once.
Spike grabs her by the shoulders and pulls her back into the alley. She struggles against him and he spins her around and throws her to the ground.
SPIKE Sorry, luv. Can’t let you do that.
BUFFY I have to tell them what happened.
SPIKE Nothing happened.
BUFFY I killed that girl.
SPIKE Demons in the woods? Time going wonky? They won’t believe you.
BUFFY I’ll show them.
SPIKE (cool) Show them what?
Buffy’s expression turns to anger as she realizes what he’s saying.
BUFFY What did you do?
SPIKE I took care of it.
BUFFY (hard) What did you do?
SPIKE What I had to. I went back and I took care of it. It doesn’t matter now. No one will ever find her.
Two COPs run out the door at the front of the station and rush to their cars.
COP #1 Where’d they find her?
COP #2 The river. She washed up half a mile from the cemetery.
Spike rolls his eyes.
SPIKE Oh, balls.
Two squad cars tear out of the lot, strobes flashing, siren wailing.
SPIKE There still isn’t anything to connect this to you.
BUFFY It doesn’t matter.
SPIKE It wasn’t your fault!
BUFFY I killed her!
SPIKE It was an accident. It just happened.
BUFFY Nothing just happens.
Buffy starts to head for the station and Spike grabs her arm.
SPIKE You’re not going in there.
BUFFY I have to do this. Just let me go.
SPIKE I can’t. I love you.
BUFFY No, you don’t.
SPIKE You think I haven’t tried not to?
Buffy decks him, the force of her punch lifting him off his feet and hurling him backward into a group of garbage cans.
BUFFY Try harder.
She starts to head for the front doors again but Spike leaps up behind her, the vampire in him ascendant. He seizes her by the shoulders and throws her to the ground.
SPIKE You are not throwing your life away over this.
BUFFY It’s not your choice.
SPIKE Why are you doing this to yourself?

BUFFY (sobs) A girl is dead because of me.
SPIKE And how many people are alive because of you? How many have you saved? One dead girl doesn’t tip the scale.
BUFFY That’s all it is to you, isn’t it? Just another body!
SPIKE Buffy—
She attacks him with a flurry of blows, driving him to the ground.
BUFFY You can’t understand why this is killing me, can you?
SPIKE Why don’t you explain it?
She continues to beat on him violently and powerfully while she talks, her emotions coming out in a flood. He takes every blow, not fighting back, not even trying to block her punches.
SPIKE Come on, that’s it! Put it on me. Put it all on me. (she kicks him) That’s my girl.
BUFFY (screams) I am not your girl!
She jumps on top of him and rains blows down on his head and chest.
BUFFY You don’t have a soul! There is nothing good or clean in you. You are dead inside! You can’t feel anything real! I could never be your girl!
She continues beating him until his face is a bloody pulp. She finally catches herself and looks down at him in horror.
SPIKE You always hurt the one you love, pet.
Buffy gets up and stares at him through her tears, silent.
SPIKE Buffy?
Her expression hardens and she walks with determination toward the police station. Spike tries to reach for her but can’t.
SPIKE Buffy…

Dead Things (S6, Ep 13)

Buffy sits on the coffee table facing Tara on the sofa.
BUFFY Are you sure?
TARA I’ve double checked everything. There’s nothing wrong with you.
BUFFY Then why can Spike hurt me?
TARA Well, I said that there was nothing wrong with you but… you are different. Shifting you out of from where you were, funneling your essence back into your body… it altered you on a basic molecular level— probably just enough to confuse the sensors or whatever’s in Spike’s chip— but it’s all just surfacey physical
stuff. It wouldn’t have any more effect than a bad sunburn.
Buffy looks close to tears.
BUFFY I didn’t come back wrong?
TARA No, you’re the same Buffy. (smiles) With a deep tropical cellular tan.
BUFFY You must have missed something. Will you check again?
TARA Buffy, I promise, there’s nothing wrong with you.
BUFFY There has to be! This just can’t be me. It isn’t me. Why do I feel like this? Why do I let Spike do those things to me?
TARA You mean hit you?
Buffy meets Tara’s eye for a moment, then looks away. Tara gets it.
TARA Oh. Oh, huh. Really?
BUFFY He’s everything I hate. He’s everything that… I’m supposed to be against. But the only time that I ever feel anything is when… Don’t tell anyone, please.
TARA I won’t.
BUFFY The way they would look at me. I just couldn’t…
TARA I won’t tell anyone. I wouldn’t do that.
BUFFY (whispers) Why can’t I stop? Why do I keep letting him in?
TARA Do you love him? (beat) It’s okay if you do. He’s done a lot of good and he does love you. And Buffy, it’s okay if you don’t. You’re going through a really hard time and you’re…
BUFFY What? Using him? What’s okay about that?
TARA It’s not that simple.
BUFFY It is! It’s wrong. I’m wrong. Tell me that I’m wrong. Please.
(sobs) Please don’t forgive me, please…
She slides off the table onto the floor and drops her head into Tara’s lap, her body wracked with sobs. Tara seems uncomfortable at first, then rubs Buffy’s back, comforting her.
BUFFY Please don’t forgive me…

Dead Things (S6, Ep 13)

BUFFY No more games.
SPIKE Well, that’s bloody funny coming from you! No more games? That’s all you’ve ever done is play me. You keep playing with rules you make up as you like. You know what I am. You’ve always known. You come to me all the same.

As You Were (S6, Ep 15)

RILEY By mission parameters, I’m done here but I have authorization to take the Doctor out. (beat) Do you want me to do that?
BUFFY (shocked) Do I want you to…? How can you ask me… I’m sleeping with him. (measured) I’m sleeping with Spike.
RILEY I had actually noticed that.
BUFFY And then you come back… and did you wait until your life was absolutely perfect and then send that demon here so you could throw it in my face?
RILEY Look, you think this was easy for me?
BUFFY Yeah! I think it was a rollicking adventure. Fun for the whole
family.
RILEY I was terrified about seeing you again.
BUFFY Well, I’m sure my incredible pathetic-ness softened the blow for
you.
RILEY I don’t know what you’re talking about.
BUFFY Riley, please don’t patronize—
RILEY Hey! You want me to say that I liked seeing you in bed with that
idiot? Or that blinding orange is your very best color? Or that… burger smell is appealing?
BUFFY (stricken) You smelled the smell?
RILEY Buffy, none of that means anything. It doesn’t touch you. You’re
still the first woman I ever loved… and the strongest woman I’ve ever known. And I’m not advertising this to the missus but you’re still quite the hottie.
BUFFY You know, it goes away after many bathings.
RILEY (laughs) This isn’t about who’s on top. I know how lucky I am right now. I love my work and I love my wife.
BUFFY I know. And I kinda love her, too.
RILEY So you’re not in the greatest place right now. And maybe I made
it worse.
BUFFY No.
RILEY The wheel never stops turning, Buffy. You’re up, you’re down… it doesn’t change what you are. And you are a hell of a woman.
BUFFY Riley, that night… I never got the chance to tell you how sorry I
was. About what happened between us.
RILEY And you never have to.

As You Were (S6, Ep 15)

SPIKE So she’s back. Thought you’d be off snogging with soldier-boy.
BUFFY He’s gone.
SPIKE So you come for a bit of cold comfort? The bed’s a bit blown up
but then that was never our—
BUFFY I’m not here to— (beat) And I’m not here to bust your chops
about your stupid scheme, either. That’s just you. I should have
remembered.
SPIKE So this is worse, then, is it? This is you telling me—
BUFFY It’s over.
SPIKE I’ve memorized this tune, luv. I think I have the sheet music.
Doesn’t change what you want.
BUFFY I know that. I do want you. Being with you makes things…
simpler. For a little while.
SPIKE I don’t call five hours straight a little while.
BUFFY I’m using you. I can’t love you. I’m just… being weak and selfish.
SPIKE Really not complaining here.
BUFFY And it’s killing me. I have to be strong about this. (beat) I’m
sorry… William.
She turns and walks off. Spike is speechless. He knows she’s serious this time.

As You Were (S6, Ep 15)

SPIKE Hello, Buffy.
BUFFY Hey.
SPIKE It’s a happy occasion. You meet my friend?
BUFFY No. Not yet. But she seems like a very nice attempt at making
me jealous.
SPIKE Is it working?
BUFFY A little. It doesn’t change anything… but if you’re wildly curious, yeah, it hurts.
SPIKE I’m sorry. (false bravado) Or good! You want us to go?
BUFFY No. No, I… you have every right to be here. I pretty much
deserve—
SPIKE That’s not true. You… (sighs) god, this is hard.
BUFFY Yeah.
SPIKE I think we’ll go.
BUFFY Go where? To your place?
SPIKE Yeah, I suppose. That was the idea.
BUFFY Yeah.
SPIKE Evil.
BUFFY Of course.
SPIKE But I won’t. Or I… I’ll just go. Give ’em my best or whatever.
The happy couple.
BUFFY I will.
SPIKE It’s nice to watch you be happy. For them, even. I don’t see it a
lot. You… you glow.
BUFFY (smiles) That’s because the dress is radioactive. (beat) I should…
SPIKE Yeah. But it hurts?
BUFFY Yeah.
SPIKE Thanks.
He turns and walks off.
BUFFY (to herself) You’re welcome.

Hell’s Bells (S6, Ep 16)
SPIKE: So she’s having the wiggens, is she? Thinks none of us are real. Bloody self-centered if you aske me.
XANDER: Spike, we need muscle, not color commentary.
SPIKE: On the other hand, it might explain some things. This all being in that twisted brain of hers. Yeah! Thinks up some chip in my head. Make me soft, fall in love with her, then turn me into her sodding sex slave.
XANDER: What?
SPIKE: Nothing.

Normal Again (S6, Ep 17)

SPIKE: You all right?
BUFFY: You need to leave me alone. You’re not a part of my life.
SPIKE: (angry) Fine, then. But I hope you don’t think this ant—
He steps into a patch of sunlight and jerks back reflexively.
SPIKE: I hope you don’t think this antidote’s gonna rid you of that nasty martyrdom. See I figured it out, love. You can’t help yourself. You’re not drawn to the dark like I thought. You’re addicted to the misery. It’s why you won’t tell your pals about us. Might actually have to be happy if you did. They’d either understand and help you— god forbid— or drive you out where you can finally be at peace. In the dark. With me. Either way you’d be better off for it but you’re too twisted for that. Let yourself live already and stop with the bloody hero trip for a second. We’d all be the better for it. (beat) You either tell your friends about us… or I will.

Normal Again (S6, Ep 17)
SPIKE What’s this?
BUFFY It’s a camera.
SPIKE Yeah, I got that part. Why am I holding it?
BUFFY Someone was using it to spy on me. On my house. Xander thinks it’s you.
SPIKE Oh, the great Xander thinks so! Shudder gasp! It must be true!
BUFFY Spike…
SPIKE That ponce has always had it for me. Every chance he gets, he sticks it— (beat) You believe him, don’t you? You think I was spying on you. You think I could do that?
BUFFY Because you don’t lie or cheat or steal or manipulate…
SPIKE I don’t hurt you.
BUFFY I know.
SPIKE No, you don’t. I’ve tried to make it clear to you but you won’t see it. Something happened to me. The way I feel… about you… it’s different. And no matter how hard you try to convince yourself it isn’t, it’s real.
BUFFY I think it is. For you.
BUFFY I know that’s not what you want to hear. I’m sorry. I really am. But Spike, you have to move on. You have to get over—
SPIKE Get out.

Entropy (S6, Ep 18)

Spike sits at the counter with Anya. They are both downing shots of whiskey.
SPIKE (angry) So then this girl says, “Real for you.”
ANYA Right. But getting back to Xander…
SPIKE Xander. Let’s not waste any more breath on that wanker.
ANYA But he made a fool of me. And nobody seems to care enough to do anything!
SPIKE I care. What he done to you? I’ve never stooped that low and I’m an “evil, soulless thing”. According to some people.
ANYA But shouldn’t he pay? Don’t you wish he had to pay in some horrible way?
SPIKE Absolutely. Take him on myself if it wasn’t for my little handicap.
ANYA Right. So… hypothetically, what do you wish you could do to him?
SPIKE You name it, pet. You’re the wronged party. Something… gruesome, how ’bout?
ANYA (angry) Thing about it is, none of this was my idea. I didn’t ask to be human.
SPIKE Right! And I didn’t ask for this bloody chip in my head.
ANYA To tell you the truth, all I wanted was to use him and lose him. I hadn’t had a good tumble in a thousand years.
SPIKE Me, too. The using part. I just wanted to know what I was missing, move on.
ANYA Yeah… and he was all bumpy in the right places. And nice to me.
SPIKE She was so raw. I’ve never felt anything like it.
ANYA Next thing you know, I’m changing to please him. I care if he cares!
SPIKE (nods) Right.
ANYA And I’m off my guard. Happy! I’m singing in the shower and doing my sexy dance!
SPIKE Exactly. (beat) I… have no dance.
ANYA Screw ’em!
SPIKE To the rafters!
ANYA I did everything for that man. Was it ever enough?
SPIKE Never! I was always going above and beyond. I saved the Scoobies how many times? And I can’t stand the lot of you.
ANYA Me, either! I hate us! Everybody’s so nice. Nobody ever says what’s on their mind.
SPIKE You do. That’s why you’re the only one of them I wouldn’t bite if I had the chance.
ANYA (giggles) Really?
SPIKE Absolutely. I have nothing but respect for a woman who is forthright. Drusilla was always straightforward. Didn’t have a single buggering clue about what was going on in front of her but she was straight about it. That’s a virtue.
ANYA Xander didn’t think so. He thought I was rude.
SPIKE That’s because he’s one of them. Uptight. Repressed.
ANYA You think?
SPIKE Please. It’s no wonder they couldn’t deal with the likes of you and me, luv. We should have been dead hundreds of years ago… and we’re the only ones who are really alive.

Entropy (S6, Ep 18)
DAWN Do you love her?
SPIKE No, no… it was just a… a bad day. For both of us and we just had a few drinks and things just—
DAWN No. Not Anya. Buffy. Do you really love her? (beat; no response) Then how could you do that to her?
SPIKE Oh, right. ’Cause big sis was treating me so well up until that point. Must still be a bit of the evil left in me after all.
DAWN I don’t know what happened between you two but what you did last night… if you wanted to hurt Buffy, congratulations. It worked.
Seeing Red (S6, Ep 19)

SPIKE Are you hurt? You’re not moving so well.
BUFFY Get out.
SPIKE We have to talk.
BUFFY I really don’t.
SPIKE Well, this isn’t just about you… as much as you’d like it to be.
BUFFY You spoke, I listened. Now leave.
SPIKE I’m sorry. Not that it matters anymore but I need you to know that.
BUFFY Why?
SPIKE Because I care about you.
BUFFY Then you might want to try the not sleeping with my friends.
SPIKE I didn’t go to Anya for that. I was looking for a spell.
BUFFY (angry) You were gonna use a spell on me?
SPIKE (sighs) It wasn’t for you. I wanted something. Anything to make these feelings stop. I just wanted it to stop! You should have let him kill me.
BUFFY I couldn’t do that.
SPIKE Why?
BUFFY You know why.
SPIKE Because you love me.
BUFFY No. I don’t.
SPIKE Why do you keep lying to yourself?
BUFFY How many times do— I have feelings for you. I do. But it’s not love. I could never trust you enough for it to be love.
SPIKE (laughs) Trust is for old marrieds, Buffy. Great love is wild and passionate and dangerous. It burns and consumes.
BUFFY Until there’s nothing left. Love like that doesn’t last.
SPIKE I know you feel like I do. You don’t have to hide it anymore.
BUFFY Spike, please stop this.
SPIKE Let yourself feel it.
BUFFY No…
SPIKE You love me.
BUFFY Ow. No, stop it!
SPIKE You love me.
BUFFY Spike, don’t!
BUFFY What are you doing?
SPIKE Let it go. Let yourself love me.
BUFFY Ow! Spike, no! Don’t!
BUFFY No… ow!… no!!
BUFFY Ask me again why I could never love you!
SPIKE Buffy, my god… I didn’t—
BUFFY Because I stopped you! Something I should have done a long time ago.

Seeing Red (S6, Ep 19)

CLEM Knock, knock!
CLEM I was just in the neighborhood so I thought, you know… there’s a Knight Rider marathon on the TV and… (holds up bucket) I’ve got hot wings!
SPIKE What have I done? (beat) Why didn’t I do it? What has she done to me?
CLEM “ She done” who? Oh! Slayer, huh? Gosh, did she break up with you again?
SPIKE We were never together. Not really. She’d never lower herself that far.
CLEM She’s a sweet girl, Spike, but hey… issues! And no wonder, what with the whole coming back from the grave and whatnot. I had this cousin who got resurrected by some kooky shaman. Oh, boy! Was that a mess.
SPIKE Why do I feel this way?
CLEM (shrugs) Love’s a funny thing.
SPIKE Is that what this is? I can feel it, squirming in my head.
CLEM Love?
SPIKE The chip. Little Jiminy Cricket, gnawing bits and chucks.
CLEM Maybe a wet cloth?
SPIKE You know, everything always used to be so clear. Slayer, vampire. Vampire kills Slayer, sucks her dry, picks his teeth with her bones. It’s always been that way. I’ve tasted the life of two Slayers. But with Buffy… (beat) It isn’t supposed to be this way!
SPIKE It’s the chip! Steel and wires and silicon. It won’t let me be a monster… and I can’t be a man. I’m nothing.
CLEM Hey! Come on now, Mr. Negative. You never know what’s just around the corner. Things change.
SPIKE Yeah, they do, huh? (beat; realizes) If you make them.
(...)
SPIKE Get nice and comfy, Slayer. I’ll be back. And when I do, things are gonna change.

Seeing Red (S6, Ep 19)
BUFFY (panting) We missed the bed again.
SPIKE Lucky for the bed.
Buffy looks down at the rug covering her naked body.
BUFFY Is this a new rug?
SPIKE No. Just looks different when you’re under it.
Buffy laughs, then looks around critically.
BUFFY You know, this place is okay for a hole in the ground. You fixed
it up.
SPIKE Well, I ate a decorator once. Maybe something stuck.
BUFFY I’ve been thinking about doing something to my room.
SPIKE Yeah?
BUFFY Yeah, I think the New Kids On The Block posters are starting to
date me.
SPIKE Well, if you want, I can…
Spike stops and looks at Buffy in surprise.
SPIKE Are we having a conversation?
BUFFY What? No! No. (beat) Maybe.
SPIKE Hmm.
BUFFY What?
SPIKE Well, isn’t this usually the part where you kick me in the head
and run out, virtue fluttering?
BUFFY That’s the plan… soon as my legs start working.
Spike grins and runs his finger up and down her arm.
SPIKE You were amazing.
BUFFY You got the job done yourself.
SPIKE I was just trying to keep up. The things you do… the way you
make it hurt in all the wrong places. I’ve never been with such an
animal.
Buffy jerks her arm away.
BUFFY I’m not an animal.
SPIKE You want to see the bite marks?
BUFFY You know, it’s late. I should get home before Dawn goes to
sleep.
SPIKE And she’s off.
Buffy disappears completely beneath the rug.
BUFFY (muffled) Have you seen my underwear?
SPIKE What is this to you— this thing we have?
BUFFY (muffled) We don’t have a thing. We have this. That’s all.
She pulls herself up on her elbows.
SPIKE Do you even like me?
BUFFY (reluctant) Sometimes.
SPIKE But you like what I do to you?
Buffy won’t look at him. After a moment Spike turns and reaches for something behind him. He holds up a pair of handcuffs.
SPIKE Do you trust me?
BUFFY Never.

Dead Things (S6, Ep 13)

TARA So what do you want to talk about?
BUFFY It’s Spike. He can hurt me. Without his head exploding.
TARA Oh, my god. His chip stopped working?
BUFFY No, it still works. Just not on me. I need to know about the spell.— the one that brought me back. I’d ask Willow but…
TARA You think it’s you.
BUFFY I don’t know. I feel… different. There are things. I think maybe… I came back wrong.
TARA (firm) No, Buffy, that’s not… No, you didn’t.
BUFFY Can you check out the spell? Just see if there’s something that… could you just check? Please?

Dead Things (S6, Ep 13)

SPIKE You see, you try to be with them but you always end up in the dark… with me.
Spike moves up behind Buffy and looks down at Buffy’s friends as they dance.
SPIKE What would they think of you if they found out… all the things you’ve done?
He puts his hand on her bare shoulder runs it down her arm.
SPIKE If they knew who you really were?
His hand moves down to her elbow and then on to her waist.
BUFFY (whispers) Don’t.
SPIKE Stop me.
Spike’s hand moves across Buffy’s thigh. She closes her eyes. He pulls her skirt
up. She gasps with pleasure.
Spike turns her around to face him. After a moment, he thrusts into her and Buffy
moans, her eyes still tightly closed.
SPIKE No… don’t close your eyes.
She opens her eyes.
SPIKE (re: her friends)
Look at them. That’s not your world. You belong in the shadows… with me.
Spike grinds slowly in and out of her whispers into her ear.
SPIKE Look at your friends… and tell me you don’t love getting away with this… right under their noses.
Buffy stares forlornly down at her friends as she lets Spike have his way with her.

Dead Things (S6, Ep 13)

Various officers go in and out of the brightly-lit building. Buffy exits the alley next to the station and heads for the main entrance. Spike steps out of the shadows and blocks her.
SPIKE What do you think you’re doing?
BUFFY The right thing. For once.
Spike grabs her by the shoulders and pulls her back into the alley. She struggles against him and he spins her around and throws her to the ground.
SPIKE Sorry, luv. Can’t let you do that.
BUFFY I have to tell them what happened.
SPIKE Nothing happened.
BUFFY I killed that girl.
SPIKE Demons in the woods? Time going wonky? They won’t believe you.
BUFFY I’ll show them.
SPIKE (cool) Show them what?
Buffy’s expression turns to anger as she realizes what he’s saying.
BUFFY What did you do?
SPIKE I took care of it.
BUFFY (hard) What did you do?
SPIKE What I had to. I went back and I took care of it. It doesn’t matter now. No one will ever find her.
Two COPs run out the door at the front of the station and rush to their cars.
COP #1 Where’d they find her?
COP #2 The river. She washed up half a mile from the cemetery.
Spike rolls his eyes.
SPIKE Oh, balls.
Two squad cars tear out of the lot, strobes flashing, siren wailing.
SPIKE There still isn’t anything to connect this to you.
BUFFY It doesn’t matter.
SPIKE It wasn’t your fault!
BUFFY I killed her!
SPIKE It was an accident. It just happened.
BUFFY Nothing just happens.
Buffy starts to head for the station and Spike grabs her arm.
SPIKE You’re not going in there.
BUFFY I have to do this. Just let me go.
SPIKE I can’t. I love you.
BUFFY No, you don’t.
SPIKE You think I haven’t tried not to?
Buffy decks him, the force of her punch lifting him off his feet and hurling him backward into a group of garbage cans.
BUFFY Try harder.
She starts to head for the front doors again but Spike leaps up behind her, the vampire in him ascendant. He seizes her by the shoulders and throws her to the ground.
SPIKE You are not throwing your life away over this.
BUFFY It’s not your choice.
SPIKE Why are you doing this to yourself?

BUFFY (sobs) A girl is dead because of me.
SPIKE And how many people are alive because of you? How many have you saved? One dead girl doesn’t tip the scale.
BUFFY That’s all it is to you, isn’t it? Just another body!
SPIKE Buffy—
She attacks him with a flurry of blows, driving him to the ground.
BUFFY You can’t understand why this is killing me, can you?
SPIKE Why don’t you explain it?
She continues to beat on him violently and powerfully while she talks, her emotions coming out in a flood. He takes every blow, not fighting back, not even trying to block her punches.
SPIKE Come on, that’s it! Put it on me. Put it all on me. (she kicks him) That’s my girl.
BUFFY (screams) I am not your girl!
She jumps on top of him and rains blows down on his head and chest.
BUFFY You don’t have a soul! There is nothing good or clean in you. You are dead inside! You can’t feel anything real! I could never be your girl!
She continues beating him until his face is a bloody pulp. She finally catches herself and looks down at him in horror.
SPIKE You always hurt the one you love, pet.
Buffy gets up and stares at him through her tears, silent.
SPIKE Buffy?
Her expression hardens and she walks with determination toward the police station. Spike tries to reach for her but can’t.
SPIKE Buffy…

Dead Things (S6, Ep 13)

Buffy sits on the coffee table facing Tara on the sofa.
BUFFY Are you sure?
TARA I’ve double checked everything. There’s nothing wrong with you.
BUFFY Then why can Spike hurt me?
TARA Well, I said that there was nothing wrong with you but… you are different. Shifting you out of from where you were, funneling your essence back into your body… it altered you on a basic molecular level— probably just enough to confuse the sensors or whatever’s in Spike’s chip— but it’s all just surfacey physical
stuff. It wouldn’t have any more effect than a bad sunburn.
Buffy looks close to tears.
BUFFY I didn’t come back wrong?
TARA No, you’re the same Buffy. (smiles) With a deep tropical cellular tan.
BUFFY You must have missed something. Will you check again?
TARA Buffy, I promise, there’s nothing wrong with you.
BUFFY There has to be! This just can’t be me. It isn’t me. Why do I feel like this? Why do I let Spike do those things to me?
TARA You mean hit you?
Buffy meets Tara’s eye for a moment, then looks away. Tara gets it.
TARA Oh. Oh, huh. Really?
BUFFY He’s everything I hate. He’s everything that… I’m supposed to be against. But the only time that I ever feel anything is when… Don’t tell anyone, please.
TARA I won’t.
BUFFY The way they would look at me. I just couldn’t…
TARA I won’t tell anyone. I wouldn’t do that.
BUFFY (whispers) Why can’t I stop? Why do I keep letting him in?
TARA Do you love him? (beat) It’s okay if you do. He’s done a lot of good and he does love you. And Buffy, it’s okay if you don’t. You’re going through a really hard time and you’re…
BUFFY What? Using him? What’s okay about that?
TARA It’s not that simple.
BUFFY It is! It’s wrong. I’m wrong. Tell me that I’m wrong. Please.
(sobs) Please don’t forgive me, please…
She slides off the table onto the floor and drops her head into Tara’s lap, her body wracked with sobs. Tara seems uncomfortable at first, then rubs Buffy’s back, comforting her.
BUFFY Please don’t forgive me…

Dead Things (S6, Ep 13)

BUFFY No more games.
SPIKE Well, that’s bloody funny coming from you! No more games? That’s all you’ve ever done is play me. You keep playing with rules you make up as you like. You know what I am. You’ve always known. You come to me all the same.

As You Were (S6, Ep 15)

RILEY By mission parameters, I’m done here but I have authorization to take the Doctor out. (beat) Do you want me to do that?
BUFFY (shocked) Do I want you to…? How can you ask me… I’m sleeping with him. (measured) I’m sleeping with Spike.
RILEY I had actually noticed that.
BUFFY And then you come back… and did you wait until your life was absolutely perfect and then send that demon here so you could throw it in my face?
RILEY Look, you think this was easy for me?
BUFFY Yeah! I think it was a rollicking adventure. Fun for the whole
family.
RILEY I was terrified about seeing you again.
BUFFY Well, I’m sure my incredible pathetic-ness softened the blow for
you.
RILEY I don’t know what you’re talking about.
BUFFY Riley, please don’t patronize—
RILEY Hey! You want me to say that I liked seeing you in bed with that
idiot? Or that blinding orange is your very best color? Or that… burger smell is appealing?
BUFFY (stricken) You smelled the smell?
RILEY Buffy, none of that means anything. It doesn’t touch you. You’re
still the first woman I ever loved… and the strongest woman I’ve ever known. And I’m not advertising this to the missus but you’re still quite the hottie.
BUFFY You know, it goes away after many bathings.
RILEY (laughs) This isn’t about who’s on top. I know how lucky I am right now. I love my work and I love my wife.
BUFFY I know. And I kinda love her, too.
RILEY So you’re not in the greatest place right now. And maybe I made
it worse.
BUFFY No.
RILEY The wheel never stops turning, Buffy. You’re up, you’re down… it doesn’t change what you are. And you are a hell of a woman.
BUFFY Riley, that night… I never got the chance to tell you how sorry I
was. About what happened between us.
RILEY And you never have to.

As You Were (S6, Ep 15)

SPIKE So she’s back. Thought you’d be off snogging with soldier-boy.
BUFFY He’s gone.
SPIKE So you come for a bit of cold comfort? The bed’s a bit blown up
but then that was never our—
BUFFY I’m not here to— (beat) And I’m not here to bust your chops
about your stupid scheme, either. That’s just you. I should have
remembered.
SPIKE So this is worse, then, is it? This is you telling me—
BUFFY It’s over.
SPIKE I’ve memorized this tune, luv. I think I have the sheet music.
Doesn’t change what you want.
BUFFY I know that. I do want you. Being with you makes things…
simpler. For a little while.
SPIKE I don’t call five hours straight a little while.
BUFFY I’m using you. I can’t love you. I’m just… being weak and selfish.
SPIKE Really not complaining here.
BUFFY And it’s killing me. I have to be strong about this. (beat) I’m
sorry… William.
She turns and walks off. Spike is speechless. He knows she’s serious this time.

As You Were (S6, Ep 15)

SPIKE Hello, Buffy.
BUFFY Hey.
SPIKE It’s a happy occasion. You meet my friend?
BUFFY No. Not yet. But she seems like a very nice attempt at making
me jealous.
SPIKE Is it working?
BUFFY A little. It doesn’t change anything… but if you’re wildly curious, yeah, it hurts.
SPIKE I’m sorry. (false bravado) Or good! You want us to go?
BUFFY No. No, I… you have every right to be here. I pretty much
deserve—
SPIKE That’s not true. You… (sighs) god, this is hard.
BUFFY Yeah.
SPIKE I think we’ll go.
BUFFY Go where? To your place?
SPIKE Yeah, I suppose. That was the idea.
BUFFY Yeah.
SPIKE Evil.
BUFFY Of course.
SPIKE But I won’t. Or I… I’ll just go. Give ’em my best or whatever.
The happy couple.
BUFFY I will.
SPIKE It’s nice to watch you be happy. For them, even. I don’t see it a
lot. You… you glow.
BUFFY (smiles) That’s because the dress is radioactive. (beat) I should…
SPIKE Yeah. But it hurts?
BUFFY Yeah.
SPIKE Thanks.
He turns and walks off.
BUFFY (to herself) You’re welcome.

Hell’s Bells (S6, Ep 16)
SPIKE: So she’s having the wiggens, is she? Thinks none of us are real. Bloody self-centered if you aske me.
XANDER: Spike, we need muscle, not color commentary.
SPIKE: On the other hand, it might explain some things. This all being in that twisted brain of hers. Yeah! Thinks up some chip in my head. Make me soft, fall in love with her, then turn me into her sodding sex slave.
XANDER: What?
SPIKE: Nothing.

Normal Again (S6, Ep 17)

SPIKE: You all right?
BUFFY: You need to leave me alone. You’re not a part of my life.
SPIKE: (angry) Fine, then. But I hope you don’t think this ant—
He steps into a patch of sunlight and jerks back reflexively.
SPIKE: I hope you don’t think this antidote’s gonna rid you of that nasty martyrdom. See I figured it out, love. You can’t help yourself. You’re not drawn to the dark like I thought. You’re addicted to the misery. It’s why you won’t tell your pals about us. Might actually have to be happy if you did. They’d either understand and help you— god forbid— or drive you out where you can finally be at peace. In the dark. With me. Either way you’d be better off for it but you’re too twisted for that. Let yourself live already and stop with the bloody hero trip for a second. We’d all be the better for it. (beat) You either tell your friends about us… or I will.

Normal Again (S6, Ep 17)
SPIKE What’s this?
BUFFY It’s a camera.
SPIKE Yeah, I got that part. Why am I holding it?
BUFFY Someone was using it to spy on me. On my house. Xander thinks it’s you.
SPIKE Oh, the great Xander thinks so! Shudder gasp! It must be true!
BUFFY Spike…
SPIKE That ponce has always had it for me. Every chance he gets, he sticks it— (beat) You believe him, don’t you? You think I was spying on you. You think I could do that?
BUFFY Because you don’t lie or cheat or steal or manipulate…
SPIKE I don’t hurt you.
BUFFY I know.
SPIKE No, you don’t. I’ve tried to make it clear to you but you won’t see it. Something happened to me. The way I feel… about you… it’s different. And no matter how hard you try to convince yourself it isn’t, it’s real.
BUFFY I think it is. For you.
BUFFY I know that’s not what you want to hear. I’m sorry. I really am. But Spike, you have to move on. You have to get over—
SPIKE Get out.

Entropy (S6, Ep 18)

Spike sits at the counter with Anya. They are both downing shots of whiskey.
SPIKE (angry) So then this girl says, “Real for you.”
ANYA Right. But getting back to Xander…
SPIKE Xander. Let’s not waste any more breath on that wanker.
ANYA But he made a fool of me. And nobody seems to care enough to do anything!
SPIKE I care. What he done to you? I’ve never stooped that low and I’m an “evil, soulless thing”. According to some people.
ANYA But shouldn’t he pay? Don’t you wish he had to pay in some horrible way?
SPIKE Absolutely. Take him on myself if it wasn’t for my little handicap.
ANYA Right. So… hypothetically, what do you wish you could do to him?
SPIKE You name it, pet. You’re the wronged party. Something… gruesome, how ’bout?
ANYA (angry) Thing about it is, none of this was my idea. I didn’t ask to be human.
SPIKE Right! And I didn’t ask for this bloody chip in my head.
ANYA To tell you the truth, all I wanted was to use him and lose him. I hadn’t had a good tumble in a thousand years.
SPIKE Me, too. The using part. I just wanted to know what I was missing, move on.
ANYA Yeah… and he was all bumpy in the right places. And nice to me.
SPIKE She was so raw. I’ve never felt anything like it.
ANYA Next thing you know, I’m changing to please him. I care if he cares!
SPIKE (nods) Right.
ANYA And I’m off my guard. Happy! I’m singing in the shower and doing my sexy dance!
SPIKE Exactly. (beat) I… have no dance.
ANYA Screw ’em!
SPIKE To the rafters!
ANYA I did everything for that man. Was it ever enough?
SPIKE Never! I was always going above and beyond. I saved the Scoobies how many times? And I can’t stand the lot of you.
ANYA Me, either! I hate us! Everybody’s so nice. Nobody ever says what’s on their mind.
SPIKE You do. That’s why you’re the only one of them I wouldn’t bite if I had the chance.
ANYA (giggles) Really?
SPIKE Absolutely. I have nothing but respect for a woman who is forthright. Drusilla was always straightforward. Didn’t have a single buggering clue about what was going on in front of her but she was straight about it. That’s a virtue.
ANYA Xander didn’t think so. He thought I was rude.
SPIKE That’s because he’s one of them. Uptight. Repressed.
ANYA You think?
SPIKE Please. It’s no wonder they couldn’t deal with the likes of you and me, luv. We should have been dead hundreds of years ago… and we’re the only ones who are really alive.

Entropy (S6, Ep 18)
DAWN Do you love her?
SPIKE No, no… it was just a… a bad day. For both of us and we just had a few drinks and things just—
DAWN No. Not Anya. Buffy. Do you really love her? (beat; no response) Then how could you do that to her?
SPIKE Oh, right. ’Cause big sis was treating me so well up until that point. Must still be a bit of the evil left in me after all.
DAWN I don’t know what happened between you two but what you did last night… if you wanted to hurt Buffy, congratulations. It worked.
Seeing Red (S6, Ep 19)

SPIKE Are you hurt? You’re not moving so well.
BUFFY Get out.
SPIKE We have to talk.
BUFFY I really don’t.
SPIKE Well, this isn’t just about you… as much as you’d like it to be.
BUFFY You spoke, I listened. Now leave.
SPIKE I’m sorry. Not that it matters anymore but I need you to know that.
BUFFY Why?
SPIKE Because I care about you.
BUFFY Then you might want to try the not sleeping with my friends.
SPIKE I didn’t go to Anya for that. I was looking for a spell.
BUFFY (angry) You were gonna use a spell on me?
SPIKE (sighs) It wasn’t for you. I wanted something. Anything to make these feelings stop. I just wanted it to stop! You should have let him kill me.
BUFFY I couldn’t do that.
SPIKE Why?
BUFFY You know why.
SPIKE Because you love me.
BUFFY No. I don’t.
SPIKE Why do you keep lying to yourself?
BUFFY How many times do— I have feelings for you. I do. But it’s not love. I could never trust you enough for it to be love.
SPIKE (laughs) Trust is for old marrieds, Buffy. Great love is wild and passionate and dangerous. It burns and consumes.
BUFFY Until there’s nothing left. Love like that doesn’t last.
SPIKE I know you feel like I do. You don’t have to hide it anymore.
BUFFY Spike, please stop this.
SPIKE Let yourself feel it.
BUFFY No…
SPIKE You love me.
BUFFY Ow. No, stop it!
SPIKE You love me.
BUFFY Spike, don’t!
BUFFY What are you doing?
SPIKE Let it go. Let yourself love me.
BUFFY Ow! Spike, no! Don’t!
BUFFY No… ow!… no!!
BUFFY Ask me again why I could never love you!
SPIKE Buffy, my god… I didn’t—
BUFFY Because I stopped you! Something I should have done a long time ago.

Seeing Red (S6, Ep 19)

CLEM Knock, knock!
CLEM I was just in the neighborhood so I thought, you know… there’s a Knight Rider marathon on the TV and… (holds up bucket) I’ve got hot wings!
SPIKE What have I done? (beat) Why didn’t I do it? What has she done to me?
CLEM “ She done” who? Oh! Slayer, huh? Gosh, did she break up with you again?
SPIKE We were never together. Not really. She’d never lower herself that far.
CLEM She’s a sweet girl, Spike, but hey… issues! And no wonder, what with the whole coming back from the grave and whatnot. I had this cousin who got resurrected by some kooky shaman. Oh, boy! Was that a mess.
SPIKE Why do I feel this way?
CLEM (shrugs) Love’s a funny thing.
SPIKE Is that what this is? I can feel it, squirming in my head.
CLEM Love?
SPIKE The chip. Little Jiminy Cricket, gnawing bits and chucks.
CLEM Maybe a wet cloth?
SPIKE You know, everything always used to be so clear. Slayer, vampire. Vampire kills Slayer, sucks her dry, picks his teeth with her bones. It’s always been that way. I’ve tasted the life of two Slayers. But with Buffy… (beat) It isn’t supposed to be this way!
SPIKE It’s the chip! Steel and wires and silicon. It won’t let me be a monster… and I can’t be a man. I’m nothing.
CLEM Hey! Come on now, Mr. Negative. You never know what’s just around the corner. Things change.
SPIKE Yeah, they do, huh? (beat; realizes) If you make them.
(...)
SPIKE Get nice and comfy, Slayer. I’ll be back. And when I do, things are gonna change.

Seeing Red (S6, Ep 19)

 
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